searching.......

So I'm pretty sure I have PMS because for some reason I can't stop thinking about the perfect sunflower seed.....yes sunflower seed the kind you eat lol. The perfect sunflower seed the is perfectly shaped and coated with the most awesome amount of salt and it is the most elusive of the sunflower seeds to find, you would think that manufacturers would have perfected this process so that all sunflower seeds are of the same quality but of course night *sigh*...............the hunt continues

who decides??

Why do people say that the only person that controls your destiny is you?? That is clearly untrue because what I feel needs to be done to make me happy in any kind of way, I can do because I have things to take care of, responsibilities etc that stop me from doing what I want to do. What I want to do is leave my job to take some time for myself and sort things out, to be able to prioritize my life and to do some of the things that make no sense but bring me happiness. Unfortunately none of those things can happen because everything in this life costs money and without a job there is no money to pay for life, therein lies the viscious cycle that will never allow me to do what I want to do with my life, so who really does control my destiny??? I have no idea but it's definitely not me